Dear Bestie
Contouring, hey? Can't say I've tried it. I have been impressed with your lipsticks, though - that coral sort of colour really suits you! The most I run to these days is primer, which I use as under-eye concealer, and if it's a really special occasion, mascara. With or without those things, I will always look like I've got two black eyes. I hope Evelyn doesn't inherit that from me.
I was thinking about you this morning, and wondering how you're doing. It sucks that you still have to explain about Eilys, but I guess it would also be horrible if nobody ever asked. Last year I went to a conference that if all had gone to plan with Brandon I wouldn't have gone to. Three people said to me 'hey, you're a mum now!' and I had to say 'no, it didn't work out' (even though I am Brandon's mum, but that's not what they meant). I had already told one of these guys by email that Brandon was stillborn, so I was really upset that it meant so little to him that he'd already forgotten. But not so upset as when he then asked me 'are you over it now?'. What kind of question is that? I barely know this guy! Surely the more appropriate question - if there had to be a question at all - would have been 'how are you doing now?'. People can be so insensitive because they have absolutely no idea what it would feel like to lose someone so precious. And I guess that's a good thing. We wouldn't wish it on anyone. And we're strong, so we'll cope with the idiots as and when they present themselves.
I went shopping today, even though I'm not supposed to be spending money. I meant to find myself a top with a gift voucher I got for my birthday, but I ended up spending it on clothes for Evelyn. I need to get into Quidco like you - then I can have free stuff too! I have been selling some stuff on ebay, so hopefully at some point that will add up to a top :) My mum made me a lovely teal maxi skirt from jersey material, but I don't seem to have anything that goes with it. She's so good at making things. I'm a bit gutted I never learnt to sew - but I guess it's never too late! Going into some of those shops was like travelling back in time. The clothes racks are basically the same as they were in the 90s and I could only afford a nail varnish.
Hope you're having a good weekend. Love you big time,
Kat xxx
Contouring, hey? Can't say I've tried it. I have been impressed with your lipsticks, though - that coral sort of colour really suits you! The most I run to these days is primer, which I use as under-eye concealer, and if it's a really special occasion, mascara. With or without those things, I will always look like I've got two black eyes. I hope Evelyn doesn't inherit that from me.
I was thinking about you this morning, and wondering how you're doing. It sucks that you still have to explain about Eilys, but I guess it would also be horrible if nobody ever asked. Last year I went to a conference that if all had gone to plan with Brandon I wouldn't have gone to. Three people said to me 'hey, you're a mum now!' and I had to say 'no, it didn't work out' (even though I am Brandon's mum, but that's not what they meant). I had already told one of these guys by email that Brandon was stillborn, so I was really upset that it meant so little to him that he'd already forgotten. But not so upset as when he then asked me 'are you over it now?'. What kind of question is that? I barely know this guy! Surely the more appropriate question - if there had to be a question at all - would have been 'how are you doing now?'. People can be so insensitive because they have absolutely no idea what it would feel like to lose someone so precious. And I guess that's a good thing. We wouldn't wish it on anyone. And we're strong, so we'll cope with the idiots as and when they present themselves.
I went shopping today, even though I'm not supposed to be spending money. I meant to find myself a top with a gift voucher I got for my birthday, but I ended up spending it on clothes for Evelyn. I need to get into Quidco like you - then I can have free stuff too! I have been selling some stuff on ebay, so hopefully at some point that will add up to a top :) My mum made me a lovely teal maxi skirt from jersey material, but I don't seem to have anything that goes with it. She's so good at making things. I'm a bit gutted I never learnt to sew - but I guess it's never too late! Going into some of those shops was like travelling back in time. The clothes racks are basically the same as they were in the 90s and I could only afford a nail varnish.
Hope you're having a good weekend. Love you big time,
Kat xxx
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